Stepping Into My Sensual Power

When I was in a long-term relationship, I started to blog about marriage which thus began my evolution into light erotica. I wanted to understand my resistance to it. Why I was so anti-marriage. Like I’ve been anti-religion. Like I’ve been anti-fishstick. Like I’ve been Anti a lot of things. I wanted to come to…
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The Problem With Monogamy

I wrote about the problem with polyamory, but I’m not letting monogamy off the hook. There are a lot of things that could be improved, in general. It was my problem with monogamy that lead me to explore polyamory in the first place. The following points may not describe all monogamous relationships and these are…
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The Problem with Polyamory

This is part one of a two-part series in which I will explore both polyamory and monogamy, and the problems I see within each model. I’ll first start with polyamory. These are my opinions only and I am not an “expert”. One Foot Out the Door The typical polyamorous model is having guidelines and agreements…
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Sacred Sex

The feeling of connection, the electric touch, the heightened sensations, going in a trance. Entering me deeper and deeper, I succumb to the spiritual ecstasies. My hands explore his backside. Caressing up and down. Then grasping, clenching, digging into his shoulders with my nails, mirroring the clenched orgasm in my body. My eyes roll back…
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The Unreliable Partner

He comes and goes as he pleases. He does not provide emotional comfort. He is not to be trusted. He seems to abandon me. I’m afraid he won’t provide or take care of me. Our relationship is shallow, at best. Non-committal. I don’t know when he’ll be around. It doesn’t feel safe to be with…
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11:11

[Note: the following piece was gathered at a sobering, but altered stream of consciousness writing session last year] We all have shadows. Will you love all of me, including my shadows? Will you love my lower self, when I’m not being my higher self? I realized something today. That is, I have some self-limiting beliefs…
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Silence

Today is my dad’s birthday. He would have been 65. I rummaged for something in the kitchen when I saw a misplaced spoon, in the wrong drawer. Dad used to put stuff away in the wrong places when he was going downhill. It felt like he was hiding things, but in his mind, I think…
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I Love You Forever

I was in the airport, ready to fly to my next destination. The air was tense and frantic. I was late and less than one hour away until boarding. There’s something about airports that leave me anxious, every time. That constant energy of shifting, moving and departing is stressful. All those hellos and goodbyes. Tense…
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Sacral Energy

Your body has an immense power to heal itself. It also has an immense power to tell you when something is wrong or out of balance. The healing comes when you come back into balance. The sacral chakra is your sexual energy center. It represents birthing and creativity. The birthing of ideas, and for women,…
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Wherever the Wind Blows Me

He came to me in a dream once. After we’d exchanged the usual Facebook fare. Browsing through his pictures made me remember why I was so attracted to him 6 years ago. Why I was still attracted to him… The dream was sexual in nature. Flesh upon flesh. A night’s romp affair. Embrace. Touch. A…
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